This post is not related to writing or books so if you're not interested in what I am about to say then you don't need to go this far.
If you are interested in some drama then go ahead and continue on reading.
For the past years, I have been experiencing a different level of stress from my family. It's not because I hate them or anything but its the way I am being treated. This is not about how I get treated by my parents but how I am being treated by my younger siblings.
Ever since we moved to a different country their attitude towards me changed. They became more vocal which is not really a bad thing but it becomes a nuisance when they disobey you upfront. In our family, we grew up to respect people who are older than you and to obey them. But recently, my sisters have been hard headed and they no longer give me the respect I deserve. They would always answer back and disrespect me by saying "No", "Why do I have to follow you?", "You also do it", "So what?" and so on... Sometimes I wonder if its all my fault why they became this way.
There are times where I end up giving up on them because there is no use talking to someone who does not listen. It hurts my heart to see that they no longer see me as their sister who should be respected but rather they just see me as one of their friends. I wonder if I treated them differently in the past would they still treat me this way? But its too late. I tried different approaches and they still don't respect me.
I told my parents about this and they did reprimanded my siblings. But after a while they go back to disrespecting me. The sibling who came after me do not respect me at all. If I were to judge her character, I would say that she is selfish, greedy, inconsiderate, vain, disrespectful and has one hell of a temper. My youngest sibling, I believe, just became this way because she follows either her friends or sees the way my other sibling treats me.
There are times where I think that after I move out from my parents place I would not help them whatsoever because of all the things they have done. But I ask myself, will this change anything? They might even treat me worst because I am ignoring them when they needed me the most. I seriously give up on trying to reach out to them but something in me always tell me that I should not do that.
When I look at other people or my friends who have a wonderful relationship with their siblings I feel jealous because my sisters and I could never be that way. I feel like my relationship with them will never change. I feel like I would always be disrespected by them until we get older. But there are times when I pray, I get a small light of hope that this would change. I really hope it would.
I just pray that one day, my relationship with my sisters would be better. I just pray that we would respect one another and love each other. Because at the end of the day, they're still my sisters.
They're still my family.
xoxo,
Schuyler Gabrielle
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Hello my wonderful lovelies! Hey lovelies! If you are interested in reading blogs about other people, well, me then stick around but if you are not then this is not the blog for you. *winkwink* So I just noticed that I have the habit of posting only 2 blogs per month. I honestly don't know why but its just a coincidence. Haha. I think. Anyways, ya'll know that I am on hiatus and I am thankful that you are all patient with me. I mean someone has to be patient because I could see that people are stumbling upon my website everytime I put up a blog. Hehe. Okay, now this is just an update of what is going on with my life and my writing. So, here we go... My winter semester is almost at its end which means FINALS FINALS FINALS. Yes, my finals and research paper due dates are coming up so I am going concentrate on that before starting to do anything else. Honestly I feel like I am doing bad in my class, well, one of my classes and its kind of depressing. So I decided that I need to focus on my studies first before this writing gig. While on my hiatus, there are so many scenarios or ideas that I could incorporate in my book and I was so happy that I was finally having some inspiration. I just need to put them all into words and I am ready to go! I also have ideas for new books that I would write in the future so stick around and I will be updating you, guys, here on my blog. This is just a short blog.. Well, I think its short.. haha. So I'm gonna stop here. And for those who was wondering what new language I was learning, you would know it when you follow me on twitter. If you're not following me then click this --> @SchuylerGVP But if you are lazy well here is the tweet... If you guessed it right then, YAY! But if not, well, I don't know. Siggh.. Okay, okay.. geez. Yes, its Korean. I am learning Korean. Well I am teaching myself through a curriculum I found online. Okay, this is getting long... Bye!
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Sorry it took so long to write a new blog. My laptop is acting up and it is overheating. I told my dad about it so we might get a cooling pad sometime this month. Anyways, actually at this moment I could hear the internal fan going crazy and according to google, it is not a good thing. So, typing this blog is a little challenging because it is somewhat hanging or something. Okay now onto the update.. Since I started my hiatus, I haven't had time to write new chapters for my book. Well, the few reasons are: a) busy with school work and midterms, b) no inspirations/ideas and c) I just didn't feel like writing. So I apologize to those who were expecting new chapters after my hiatus. I mean, there would be new chapters but I don't know when I will get back to posting them. I honestly did not think that I would be this busy plus, I guess, I did not think this through enough. But no worries, I will definitely finish writing the book. I just don't know when. Yo, guys, school has been hectiiiic! I have another exam next week after we finish the chapter we are currently discussing in class. I, also, have a research paper due on the 14th that I have not started yet. I just want to crawl to a corner and cry. I seriously don't know what to do. For the younger readers who are reading this, remember DO NOT PROCRASTINATE. Just don't. It will bring regret in your life. On a lighter note, I started learning a new language two days ago! WOOP! It feels kinda weird that I am learning about the proper structure and the alphabet of the language. I mean, I feel like a kindergartner. I am not going to tell you the language right now. I will probably tell you soon when I know more about it. Because I'm still on Unit 1, Lesson 2. I actually should be studying right now so... xoxo, Schuyler Gabrielle Hi there! |