This post is not related to writing or books so if you're not interested in what I am about to say then you don't need to go this far.
If you are interested in some drama then go ahead and continue on reading.
For the past years, I have been experiencing a different level of stress from my family. It's not because I hate them or anything but its the way I am being treated. This is not about how I get treated by my parents but how I am being treated by my younger siblings.
Ever since we moved to a different country their attitude towards me changed. They became more vocal which is not really a bad thing but it becomes a nuisance when they disobey you upfront. In our family, we grew up to respect people who are older than you and to obey them. But recently, my sisters have been hard headed and they no longer give me the respect I deserve. They would always answer back and disrespect me by saying "No", "Why do I have to follow you?", "You also do it", "So what?" and so on... Sometimes I wonder if its all my fault why they became this way.
There are times where I end up giving up on them because there is no use talking to someone who does not listen. It hurts my heart to see that they no longer see me as their sister who should be respected but rather they just see me as one of their friends. I wonder if I treated them differently in the past would they still treat me this way? But its too late. I tried different approaches and they still don't respect me.
I told my parents about this and they did reprimanded my siblings. But after a while they go back to disrespecting me. The sibling who came after me do not respect me at all. If I were to judge her character, I would say that she is selfish, greedy, inconsiderate, vain, disrespectful and has one hell of a temper. My youngest sibling, I believe, just became this way because she follows either her friends or sees the way my other sibling treats me.
There are times where I think that after I move out from my parents place I would not help them whatsoever because of all the things they have done. But I ask myself, will this change anything? They might even treat me worst because I am ignoring them when they needed me the most. I seriously give up on trying to reach out to them but something in me always tell me that I should not do that.
When I look at other people or my friends who have a wonderful relationship with their siblings I feel jealous because my sisters and I could never be that way. I feel like my relationship with them will never change. I feel like I would always be disrespected by them until we get older. But there are times when I pray, I get a small light of hope that this would change. I really hope it would.
I just pray that one day, my relationship with my sisters would be better. I just pray that we would respect one another and love each other. Because at the end of the day, they're still my sisters.
They're still my family.