I was starting to get tired of looking at the same sentences over and over again. But I ask myself, "When will I finish the story?". So there... I actually edited chapter one. Just that chapter because I feel a headache was about to come. Anyways, my head are full of ideas for this book. But my problem is that they're all just ideas... Without any words written down, it will be there in my head waiting. I never thought writing would be THIS hard. I mean, I have this love-hate relationship with writing but as I am thinking of words and dialogues to include in the story, the more I am starting to hate this writing gig. I'm not getting paid for it. Only around 68 people have read it... and most of them were me because I was trying to see how it looks like when it was published. And finally, 4 votes. Its kind of discouraging in a sense because I feel like no one likes what I am writing.
But there are moments where I tell myself that this is just the beginning. All authors started with this. So I am now determined to finish Out For Blood no matter how long it takes (probably a year and a half, give or take).
So currently, I am in my second year in college. I feel literally old because in less than 10 months I will be turning 20. And with that thought it made me realize how after a few years I would start looking for a job that's connected to what I studied back in college, move out and look for my own place, and start paying my own bills. It seems like life just gave a slap in the face of what is took come in the next 5 or 6 years. Sigh. The stress is so damn real.
My website... My freakin' new baby website. I am having a hard time promoting it and it's kind of awkward writing this blog because, obviously, I am the only one reading this. It is kind of sad in a sense. Haha. I checked the stat of how many have seen my and it says around 75-82 but for some reason I feel like it was all me since I needed to check a few time the published version of my site. It's kind of funny because I am the only one who knows this site. I did promote it on my Wattpad page a few time and on Twitter but let's be honest. I am just a newbie author. Hopefully after a few years, when people finally have read my work, I would get a HUGE laugh out of this blog. And i would be thinking, "Man, I was such a noob back then. I sounded so desperate."
Ha! I feel desperate. Oh well...
- Schuyler Gabrielle